This is M.

Temporally Gelatinous

The unexpected profundity of encountering ancient cultures in Belize, the weirdness of the weekend as an altered state, "The Exorcist" as a referent for modern horror movies like "Talk to Me," and aging as a barrier to enjoying them.

Unfair

Christopher Columbus and the conquest of "the Indies" as a circuitous route through the topics of tough teachers, intergenerational trauma, and the music industry.

Minefield

Emotional whiplash with respect to graduate school, a trend of tepid dates, the self-imposed curriculum of classical music, the merits of the "walking date," and the minefield of moving forward making sure you are doing what you want with your life.

Should Ideology

A more punctual entry in which we traverse the familiar subjects of shame in the face of other people's success, finding satisfaction in a life of relatively unobserved accomplishments, and some other stuff about school and Taiwan.

Never Forget

A belated recording in which I discuss leaving my job, possibly putting off graduate school, creative courage, and the life-sentence of mediocrity everyone not named Jacob Collier is condemned to.

Full Fudging Schizophrenic

A pinball-brained entry about reconsidering grad school applications, the slowing of the creative mechanism, a flat bike-tire, software synthesis, The Divine Comedy, and aspiring auteurism.

Take the Ride

Big changes recently including starting the next semester at school and putting in my two weeks at work. Also discussed: taking the ride and trusting the process of less eventful, but more rewarding endeavors.

Memento

Falling into old habits since returning from Taiwan, the perpetual disappointment of not being fulfilled by things that should make you happy, the feeling of living life with the e-brake on, and the underlying allegory of the Christopher Nolan film, "Memento."

Meet Cute

Good to be in touch again after nearly two years.  In this installment I discuss events since we last spoke, studying Mandarin Chinese in Taiwan this summer, my dating experiences (and disappointments) while abroad, and my ambivalence about coming back to the States and falling into my old routines very easily.

Ciao, For Now

The final episode of the podcast, starting at a new school, the strangeness of taking classes on campus again, reading "Titus Andronicus" and "Antigone," the challenge of Intermediate Chinese this semester, teaching in Mandarin only, discovering the bookstore where I stumbled on the "I Ching" has closed, separating from my girlfriend, being in couple's counseling for the last couple months, returning to the theme of the creative project I have been sitting on for years, wishing I felt inspired to begin that work finally, looking ahead to spending my time on school work and being single, thanking the dedicated listeners of this podcast, and a final goodbye. Music by Disasterpeace.